June 11, 2025, Wednesday

Waking from a terrifying dream of watching my wife drift away behind the huge ship that was saving me from a deep and restless sea. Crying out her name as she drifts further and further astern, appearing and disappearing in the enormous swells. 

How do we say goodbye to those we love? How do we show love at the end of someone’s life?

I think for me it has shown that I do not REALLY listen to others. I always have an agenda running in my mind, or I’m trying to make a connection between the person in front of me and someone/something else. And this not listening has caused a lot of unreal expectations and hopes that have crashed, and it’s all because of me. So for the next 30 years or so, I think my focus is on listening to both the said and unsaid things that the people I interact with are saying. And step two will be to stay with what is said while still holding in my heart the unsaid. Having both gives a fuller picture of the person in front of me and a clearer understanding of how I can be of service to them.